The Flight of Apollo

This statement has been playing inside my mind like a playlist put on repeat since last night.

"There's a very thin line between kasar and kurang ajar"

WTH right? I know this statement will offend anyone it refers to
There's no "but" this time. I know you would anticipating a "but".

Not this time.

So I wrote this with a clear mind. I just finished my prayer, I have cleaned my work space. I haven't get my dinner yet thou. But that's okay since I've just ate some roti kok. If you dont't know what roti kok is, google's your friend.

I believe mind and heart are like two different company. Working in the same long term project called life. Sometimes they don't get along. Because sometimes they both thinking that their ideas are better that the other.

My mind interpret logic with facts and statistic to back him up.

While heart got it's own advantage. She got intuition.

Mind will find all risk and try to avoid them. While heart just say "yes" almost instantly. But sometimes, when you doing something risk-free like walking in the park; your heart will send a "hell no" signal. Because she saw something that mind can't see. Hearts felt.

Anger does not come from the heart. It comes entirely from mind. Heart will only feel hate. She doesn't have anger.

So to future Hanif, remember to listen to your heart. You will always find her there. She may sits in silent but know that every heart beat is a calling for you.

Your mind will learn to accept in time. He's your bro. He always have your back.

Life doesn't hurt so badly.

Smite smite smite

Silly me,

I will always let you used me and ignore me whenever you feel right.

Always, silly. :)

And I promised I will never tell you what I have done for you.

Because, silly. :)

I had promised you I would never tell how it ends.

Silly me.

HER

I think it is time for me to discuss the matter of which will surely make a bit part of an organ which located in the top left of one's abdomens to fluster or a feeling of a couple of beautiful class of insect to have their movement by which flapping their wings in one's stomach.

To have a clear understanding or to not ever embarrass the future me; this kind of feeling is new but I don't want to exaggerate the definition by adding a clumsy hyperbola or to quote any stanza from Poe or Shakespeare. I may lack of those sets of skill on which I think is not natural and can only be attained by years of experiences, but I'm very sincere. And I have had "her" as a permanent resident in my mind.

Where and how to begin? I think the question of why is much more important than when. But then again, it is just me. A relationship is judge on how they grow throughout the entire time and space NOT on how long they'd stayed together. Because people will grow and sometimes when they're growing they grow apart. Thus, throughout the hard time I often ask the question 'why'. And try the hardest to avoid 'when'.

It is relatively easy to fall in love, by physical or by feeling. Whichever it is, I think you need to find more than that of you ever want to venture in a more advance stage of falling in love. Because the more you think about it, you will realized that marriage is not about you. It stands for a larger part of your life. You might hear people said "screw that, kau yang nak kahwin bukan orang lain" but boy you can't never be so wrong. That phrase, my dear friend is just for your short comfort and serve nothing more. Marriage is for your wife. Marriage is for her family. Marriage is for your family. Marriage is for her and your friends. That's why you need more reason to falling in love with her rather than just a simple physical attraction and feeling. For me, even if she lost half of her face (selisih 44 angels) I'm still going to marry her. And it still beat the hell out of me if you ever ask on why I want to marry this girl so much. I can't explain it. It is a feeling which have no word yet to describe it; it's actually a mix of feeling that I have whenever I saw her; a mix of very happy, longing, glad, gewwamm(yes, I've just said it. An act to be cute but failed miserably. I know), complete and sad. It's VHLOGEWCSA. That doesn't sound romantic right? That's why I doesn't said it out to her. But I can tell you this; I wake up one morning, and the first thought was I want to marry this girl and I never looked back.

So to future Hanif, Whatever happened or will happen; don't forget the answers to 'why'. 

Syukur et al.

Adik kawan aku akan bergelar seorang graduan. Yeay!
Dan kawan aku belikan iphone 5s sebagai hadiah. Yeay!
Dan di atasnya terdapat kad bertulis "You deserved it". Aww!

I remember very well my graduation day. Asked my parents where's my bouquet.
Silent.
I shook my head very well. Like I was listening to some punk music. Thou, they was playing gamelan and some mayang di ulek shits in the back.

What to do? We're not doing very well under Pak Lah.
And also my dad started spilling the beans.
Economically we are all affected.
Psychologically? Not me.
But its trigger the dawn of my mom's "crying-over-the-phone" period.

So I got a flower.
From myself. (Cost me RM8)
They were plastic.
Because I think I deserved a flower on that day.
So that's that.


If I was in that time again, I would bought a beer instead.
Worst decision of my life.
So, syukur. And thank you god for not making time traveling a possible thing.

Go on and Google "life"

So this piece of crap is still exist. The mark of one celestial being trying to prove that the meaning of life is too eccentric to define.

Don chu eva kros dis faking lain

Semua orang pun cakap macam tu lepas habis internship.


Da jadi matang kononnya. pfft

Untuk Anep masa depan

1. Koko Krunch + peanut butter = x sedap.
2. Lipas atas lantai yang x bergerak selama 5 minit x semestinya da mati.
3. Jangan dengar lagu Coldplay masa drive.
4. Spider besar x mati kalau sembur dengan Ridsect. Lalat pun sama.
   
5. Jangan maki hamun tebuan/lebah sebab dia macam boleh dengar. Nanti dia kejar.
6. Tengok expiration date kat kotak susu sebelum minum.
7. Always bawak guitar pick dalam wallet sebab girls rasa itu cool.

-okay, noted.